Extracted from my Xanga Blog.


Sunday, March 18, 2007

It's been awhile since I've created this blog.
Didn't think it was necessary. But now, just feel like it.
Being in the state of confusion, I hardly know what I want, what I need, and what I'm really looking for.
I miss home, my room, my bed... Feel like crying.

Sometimes, I think Pris and I isn't that suitable. Probably it's me, where the problem lies deep within. I don't know when, why, what is happening to me. She's such a nice girl, being so patient with me. Always there for me, always tolerate my tremously mood swings. Yet, no complaints from her. She worries when I became too happy, too quiet, too sad.
But what have I done. Always giving her my expectations, my demands and my attitude. Always complaining whatever that I dislike. Seriously, I haven't really thought about her feelings. I seldom shower my care and love her.
My feelings for her have faded over time. Sometimes it goes up, but most of the time, it kept plunging.
What if? Is she ready and willingly to part? I don't wanna hurt her.